Today though the clouds were dark and the wind was fast, the temperature was amazing!
It got up to 19 degrees Celsius. So I decided to take advantage of it and go out and rake the dead weeds from the garden.
Some people love gardening, and to be honest, for a long time I've wondered why.
The dirt under the finger nails and in between your toes wigs me out, and the tedious task of planting and remembering to weed and water the garden and then harvesting the vegetables seems like sheer misery to my short attention span.
I have always had a black thumb like no one else. I can't keep a house plant alive to save my soul. But, The Mundane One loves to garden, and he always has. Any house we have ever lived in for the 14 years we have been together always had some sort of garden, due to his desire for one. I've always been involved in helping out with them because of my desire to not disappoint him. That's what you do when you love someone... you are more willing to do things you don't like for them, because they love it, and through that it brings you some sense of happiness too.
But to be totally truthful, I've never really liked the work that gardening feels like it has involved to keep it going. Until recently.
I know gardening takes actual planning and doing things in a timely fashion, like planting the seeds to start them indoors, and then prepping the soil, planting them, weeding and watering on a schedule and harvesting before the veggie rot or flower and what not, but I have a green thumb for a hubby who keeps track of all that, so i no longer get overwhelmed by our 13 squares ( 4 by 4 foot squares to do square foot gardening)
Gardening for me consists of going out into the garden to do what needs to be done, that day. So long as hubby can keep me on track to what needs to be done that day and I don't have to think too far in advance and plan ahead too much, I do not not have a panic attack at the volume of stuff that is required to grow our own food.
Though, in true ADD fashion I would be an amazing seed farmer, since all that requires is planting the plant, and letting it go to the flowering point and then collecting the seeds once the plant is near dead!
It is true that the dirt under my finger nails and toenails wigs me out still, but I just wear thicker gloves and rinse my hands and feet off often when it gets to be too much for me to handle. The difference in me learning to like gardening came slowly over the last two years, since we purchased an mp3 player for me and I loaded it up with songs I love to go to.
My "Go List" is full of fast paced music that make me want to move, and keeps me motivated to keep going. The only time I am truly in the now is when I have music in my ears or when I am singing or playing the guitar, so I started to attach my being in the now to things I hate doing, or do not have the attention span for, like housework, or yard work, or gardening, by putting my earphones on, turning it loud enough to block out the world and just going to music. Maroon 5 and LMFAO help me clean the kitchen daily, and Great Big Sea helps me cut the wood and run 10 K on the gazelle.
Today I raked the garden for an hour and 40 minutes to Fun, Jessie J, The Dixie Chicks, Miranda Lambert, Kelly Clarkson and a bunch of David Guetta, and Flo Rida.
I'm sure I looked silly dancing with the rake in the garden, but ya know, as the Dixie Chicks sing-
"Some days you gotta dance
Live it up when you get the chance
'Cause when the world doesn't make no sense
And you're feeling just a little too tense
Gotta loosen up those chains and dance"
Through music helping me be in the now, I have learned to love gardening. Over the last two years, even the tedious raking and preparing the garden has become a time for me to just forget everything else going on around me and just be.
Right there, in the now, with good music in my ears. For me, music has always been my working meditation and through that I have found zen in the garden.
I'm kind of looking forward to the warmer weather and harvesting the vegetables of our labours this year, more than any other year previous. But shh, don't tell anybody. I have a reputation as a black thumb and an ADDer to uphold!